Tagged with Grief

Meh. Break Up Poems.

Meh. Break Up Poems.

1. Straight off the train and it’s hanging in the air. Scanning everywhere For a glimpse of a moment gone by. I feel his hand on my thigh. Your name in lights, literally, above the night. Your name in lights, literally, above the night. It’s that time again When we began. The air feels just … Continue reading

Slow burn

Slow burn

Sat with my feet on the opposite chair Because the floor is cold In my mind. Elbows on the table And my back pressed Into the awkward angles Of the front of the Rayburn. It is only on simmer. This cough is Clearing the grief From the depths of my lungs. It is sticky and … Continue reading

Check In & Baggage Drop

Check In & Baggage Drop

As I sat rocking on the bathroom floor, unable to stand from the agonising twists in my belly, sweating and pale and vomiting from pain, I knew that all I could do was sit with myself through the intense waves and know that they would pass and I would be OK. I couldn’t move from … Continue reading

Dear One

Dear One

Dear One, I adore you and I miss you and I don’t know what this sadness is but I know it isn’t love. It’s something else that’s passing through that comes bubbling up when my heart is touched. I’m grieving what feels like a loss even though I know you are not gone. In fact … Continue reading

Let grief be an outpouring

Let grief be an outpouring

“Let grief be an outpouring. When grief is allowed to exhaust its expression, then behind it is a profound silence, it’s like rest. No one can tell you when that rest is finished, it’s an intuitive thing” ~ Mooji Saying bye bye to a heart’s companion today, a short but very sweet love connection with … Continue reading

Guts and viscera

Guts and viscera

Do I want to write about all the dizzying years? The heart, wrenching? The ravished and ravaged soul, and the self I became despite and because of it? I feel so far from that now. Was it a dream? And here I am again, in some godawful corridor, hall of mirrors…. It’s tiring, I want … Continue reading